.

I have this thought in my head
that I could be with someone and they wouldn't make me mad.
But I'm pretty sure that's bullshit..
Because everyone makes me mad.

:D

My Goodness..

There is so so much more than I could have imagined here.

There is so so much more than I could have hoped.

ohman..
On Friday it'll be our month, I don't see how thats possible. It feels like time goes really slow and really fast at the same time, twilight zone shit.
This is happy.

Feeling Sorry.

Pneumonia. My older brother caught himself pneumonia and now I'm the bad little sister who doesn't give a shit because he brought it upon himself.

So fuck me for not giving a shit

"If only you could see The stranger next to me,
You promise you promise that you're done,
But i cant tell you from the drugs"

I can't exactly explain what happens to you when the person you shared everything with turns into a drug addict.

The first thing I think of is the picture shown above. We had picnics. We played house; we were always twins even though I was a solid foot taller than her. We played cops and robbers. When did that stop? When was the last day we all hopped on our bikes and chased after each other? When did picnics become lame?
When did stealing our mom's Mike's turn into vodka? When did crushed Smarties turn into real pills, real highs?
I need to know when my innocence died.
how many times could I have saved you from this?

Just sayin'

"Everyone's just laughing at me. I hate it. Big breasts, big ass, big deal, Can't I be anything else ? Gee, how long can you be sexy?" - Marilyn Monroe
Ms. Monroe is known for being probably the biggest sex symbol of all time.
Ms. Monroe was a size 14.

Sex symbols nowadays will blow away when the wind gets over 5 mph.

But Marilyn Monroe owned it. She said once "The body is meant to be seen, not all covered up."
How fucking ballsy is that? For those days- that was crazy.

I don't care if you love her or hate her- I personally admire her and how ballsy she was. I find her stunning. Her size fourteen self.

I haven't done a confession in a while soo.

Confession:
when no one was home today I tried to Dougie. It wasn't that bad.
Confession;
I never made New Year's resolutions because I think they are failures waiting to happen.

i don't see what anyone can see in anyone else but you..

"I don't know what you do but you do it well- I'm under your spell"
-Duffy

You made me melt tonight. That hasn't happened in a really, really, really long time. Bacon grease isn't the usual bonding tool- but it proved how sweet you are. Seeing me getting hurt over and over by flying grease ouchness you took over and made sure i didn't go near it again.
You held my hand- but not only that you were so sweet to me and gentle. You rubbed my wrist- the wrist that gave me panic attacks- and I was fine. I trust you with me. I don't think you know how ginormous that is.
You make me smile.