This Too Shall Pass.

Ohmygosh.

I couldn't even explain how much I would like to punch something or someone.

I don't know why my heart beats a thousand times harder with you, its not something I can help.

I don't understand. I don't like you.

I shouldn't like you I mean.

Finals are almost over which means that school is almost over.

Which is amazing I cannot wait until I can sleep until two and then hangout with people until four in the morning. :]

ah summer<3

It would be nice to be so close to God and not be under a hardcore attack constantly.

Joshua 3:5

God told me to look at this verse during worship at Pulse and then when I got home everything in my life when to hell.. again.

So I freaked for about 15 minutes and then when I calmed down I went into my room and read the verse.

And here's what I got from it; God is surrounding me with chaos so He can purify me.

So I have to hold tough like one of those shells that holds on to the rocks in the ocean;

I need to cling to where I will be safe.

I will be hit by waves.

My life will be effected.

But my God will be there holding on to me too.

It'd be nice if you came to the rescue...

I think I'm going to join the Navy..

Not as a soldier, but as a nurse.

There's too much turmoil inside my skin to talk about right now.

But I will say this..

If I was dating someone and everytime I got really close with them, I got hurt and my life went to shit, everyone would tell me to break up with them.

Why is God different?

I get close and everything around me falls apart.

I don't want that to happen anymore.

Maybe I just want to walk away..