I have so much going on right now I feel like a plate spinner.
Maybe when I go to Sanibel with Mommy I'll start thinking more clearly.

104 Days

Until college.

I don't want to be in this stage of my life anymore. i just want to move on, leave things and people and stupidness behind. I honestly hate high school, being in it. I feel trapped there and I always have.. I don't exactly know why but I don't think I ever fit there, maybe that's insecure or juvenile, but its how I feel. I never really had a set group of friends until this year- mainly because I wasn't in school enough to even know people's names but still. There was never a sense of belonging for me never the "I'm a high schooler and you're a high schooler. YEAH!" High School wasn't my niche.

I cannot help but wonder what my roommate is going to be like. Ex. My mom will mention getting a certain food for my room to snack on and I immediately think 'what if my roommate is allergic or doesn't like it? Or thinks I'm wicked stupid for bringing food?' I'm probably not the only one who does that- but thinking about someone that A) I don't know and B) isn't definite to share a room with me yet.

I just want it to be here.

I wish my mom wasn't such a slut.

Great example, cunt.